Art Prelude

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Art of Narrative- Concept for Life

Dear acquaintances, art lovers and fellow artists as an conceptual artist I often encounter existential dilemma, ambiguity, dubious universe within myself. I don't know whether it is worth it to try bend and shape the imaginative space and time that surround us, challenging us always with new tasks. What I am trying to achieve as a painter is some sort of perspective, uniqueness and resemblance to something I visualize in structure of constructive fascination. Yet the goal still evades me leaving me with new blank page to be filled every time I try. Which is a good thing, because to reach absolution in perfection is almost impossible, and personal drive to reach higher peek motivates us create more.Each of us was born to this place with certain predestined purpose, a knowledge that we never learned an instinct that more or less guides us through the perils and beauties of life. The one that deep in our minds we know is the one we excel in without to much effort, just naturally applied into the daily routine. After all those years (20 now) of my artistic endeavour I still live pretty much day to day, hand to mouth existence far away from being well off , often disturbed by the fact that to be too self-expressive or original or simply derailed from the mainstream by lacking ",the right social status, the right financial means prospects, the right members only club fancy" has its price, no matter how great the talent you posses.

I do look on art from the perspective salvation, a remedial space where anything is possible, mostly in a form of self-discovery where you can surprise yourself in instant of realization that something in you has been awaken, as it happen to me one evening of my youth when I was contemplating the importance of fact that has only two outcomes in heart of a troubled mind.To be or not be. Well I decided to find the solution and decided to become a 'famous painter'. Now it sounds like a laughable matter but in that moment it was the only hope that I could cling on (will explain details in following chapters) to actually comprehend what existence and confidence really means.

Although I do wish to have commercial success, I do not want to shatter the inner structure of that what made me an artist in first place. And that is authenticity and almost confessional straight-forwardness in generous and sincere storytelling within the surreal atmosphere of my being, not to mention that I am a very shy person, bit incredulous, wishing to be more celestial. I do not want to loose the identity that might individually participate in recognition of art forms <that support me like pillars of creation>for others to associate with ambience of my work. I tried to commercialize my art so many times , to adapt it to the needs of environment , to please the crowd with something palpable, but no matter how hard I tried there was always /almost in every painting, sketch or drawing/ a remnant of something subconscious about it that lingered like the aftermath of warped destiny and turbulent attitude towards the conventional, casual or conservative lifestyle.

To make comparison , I feel like some ghostly vessel for all those artist in the past, leaving me some transparent message, encoded in some multi-coloured pattern of constant visual rapture, I mean sometimes I cannot even concentrate without running some composition in visual space, waiting for the miracle to happened. In short: Life is not easy for everyone in approach, but is good to keep all hopes up, no matter what:)

Art as Therapy & Meditation

My paintings should be observed more like elemental, escapist, spheric spectacle collectable via its radical structure and decorative nuance. In its core the field of subjectivity aligning with contrary themes approaching vibe of antagonist perspective.

What I am trying to say, many of us live in emotional distress often tormented with loneliness, lack of personal integrity, wishful thinking, sexual shyness, panic attacks, lack of confidence, mental formations, fear of recognition, day-dreaming, suicidal tendencies, social paranoia, demystifying taboos, outsider factor and so on...ART can transform these into positive charges, freeing the mind in process of involvement, allowing to release possible space for a ability in creative sector of mind in every individual and prepare remedy or better to say motivational placebo that has its root in Expressionism within of each of us.

What I am trying to say is that art can be remedial, it can be your best friend a realm of satisfaction no matter what's your motivation, your passionate supporter and navigator.

~Art can literally save your life.~